The Poet Takes a Bike Ride
I have usually done this on a bicycle.”
– Kay Ryan, “The Poet Takes a Walk,” from Synthesizing Gravity
When does one become a poet?
When I have led poetry workshops and participants have asked me this question, I have told them, If you write poems, you’re a poet. But that answer doesn’t satisfy me.
Is it having a poem published? Or does it need to be a chapbook? Does it have to win a prize? Or get noticed by someone noticeable?
But—I argue with myself—you have notebooks full of poems.
Most aren’t anything special, I counter.
But you’ve haiku-ed every single day for five years. You’re in year six.
Most aren’t proper haiku.
But you think in poetry. You feel poetry, like blood coursing along every road you bike. When pedaling uphill in Canada, you passed a gate with a bee logo, and the sign said the name of the farm was Innisfree, and you recited Yeats’ poem aloud, very breathily.
Well, yes. There’s that.
One person who is definitely a poet and who has struggled with what that means is Kay Ryan. She’s won a Pulitzer prize and has served two terms as the U.S. poet laureate. That means she and I don’t have a whole lot in common, other than the fact that we both like poetry and we both like bicycles. We also both feel conflicted about what it means to be a poet.
For this is a fact: Though a person may be absolutely destined to be a poet, the person doesn’t altogether understand this at first. For a long time the person just feels silly.”
– Kay Ryan, “Do You Like It?” from Synthesizing Gravity
As silly as Frederick, composing words while other hard-working mice prepare for winter. Here I am at my desk/picnic table, with an old dog on either side of me, while I scribble in pencil. Some of those scribbles get typed and revised on a screen. A few of them make their way into the world.
This summer I did readings of Rainbow Crow at libraries. I was surprised to find that wearing a pink cowgirl hat with a sparkly tiara glued to the front did not make me feel silly. My hat is fun. My crow poems are fun. We all had a lot of fun.
But when one newspaper ran a story with the headline, “Poet, officials help launch summer reading program,” I felt silly again.
Here’s where I don’t feel silly: on a bicycle. My mother promised I could see Grease if I learned to ride, and that was all the motivation I needed. Forty years later, I’m still riding. I live in an area that is a cycling destination, and riding clears my head and gives me fresh perspective.
So when I was finally ready to ask myself the question Kay Ryan asked herself on a bike ride across America — “So the bicycle trip was four thousand miles to say yes or no to poetry,” she writes — I asked it on a bike ride. Mine was only 160 miles and far more luxurious than Ryan’s, but hey, I’m not 30 years old, as she was on her trek.
In her essay, Ryan muses about how being a poet resembles being a cockroach or an anglerfish. Poets are “hardy little survivors,” she tells us. We cannot “evolve beyond the comical, partial creature [we are].” When I tell people I write for magazines, they are impressed. When I tell them I write poetry, they look at me as if I have confessed to being a cockroach who dreams of becoming an anglerfish.
Ryan’s answer to her question came in the form of another question, while powering her two wheels up the Colorado Rockies. (That’s where revelation should come, far from home.) Hers came like a “stunt kite” sweeping through the pines: “Do you like it?”
During my five days bicycling the Gulf Islands of British Columbia, I didn’t do all the writerly things I usually do on vacation — didn’t write or read poems. I just biked up punchy hills and around sharp bends. For the first time in a long time, I was just Megan, from Texas, here with John for their 30th anniversary. Not a poet. Not my losses. Just a girl on a road bike with a Curious George jersey.
“What do you think you’ll bring back from this trip?” a woman asked me on our final ferry ride back to the mainland. I’d heard her tell a stranger that she was writing a book about losing her mother, and so I admitted that I’d written a book about the same thing. We compared publishing notes while keeping an eye out for whales.
No whales appeared. No answer in the form of a question arose from the ocean.
Safely home, I started my laundry. Then I got out my haiku journal and wrote one for each day of the trip. I started reading a new poetry collection. I journaled about all the moth poems that were suddenly cropping up (what was that about?). And I got back on my bike.
1. Hello, poets. Do you claim the label? Do you ever feel silly about loving poetry?
2. Who is a real, professional poet with whom you find some affinity?
3. Share your August pages. Sliced, started, and abandoned are all fair game.